A crumbling foundation

i got to thinking today. when a foundation falls apart underneath you, you cant fix it while your structure is on top, at least not well enough to permenantly dispose of the problem. you have to destroy the current structure, lay a new foundation, and build a completely new structure. otherwise you get cracks, which can often lead to more serious problems.

the problem i have been having is feeling as though i am this structure, and the foundation i laid my life on has not been strong enough to support me, nor has it been serving its function as a cementing place for my life. this is probably one of the hardest things i have ever had to do.
i have to sit down, and figure out what needs to go, what stays, and where i need to rebuild. i cant do this based on what i believe others will do, say or feel. i have to do this based on whats going to help me the most, whats going to be most productive towards my goal and my life. it sounds selfish, but living my life to please others has gotten me no where.

God please give me the strength adn the wisdom to make the oncoming decisions, the courage to rebuild broken relationships, and the grace to make an easy transition.

felling better?

life can be confusing, but its all in your reaction and your attitude.
we cant change the world, only influence certain elements around us. lately i have been confusing emotion with action. its not wrong to be angry, its wrong to act based upon your anger. if we learn how to seperate ourselves from this issue, and see why we are really mad, and if its worth being angry about, then make a decision.
most of the things people in our society get mad about are trivial, and yes they can be important. but priority only goes to the things you give it to.
like a cell phone. yes it makes life more convienient and i really wish i had one, but its not a necessity.
life is more like a play, some scenes your on the stage playing your part, others you choose to sit back and watch them play out.

Why i Love You

when all the lights went out
and all seemed lost
when earth was about
to become a lost cause

there was a light
it seemed to get dimmer
no one moved towards it
it was barely a glimmer

earth cradled the candle
affection overflowing
not too hot to handle
and love was going

Through her veins
and into her heart
which bled so often
earth was torn apart

but the flame was moving
and it healed the rest
of her poor heart that was fluttering
for you knew what was best

but along came this candle
and once it had wick
it grew to the sun
because it had its pick

of affection so great
that bloomed into love
which grew into bonds
destined above

and earth changed alot
from a dark little seed
to a blossom so bright
it would not be believed

her stem grew tall
her leaves grew wide
her blossoms were amazing
and love took them astride

as the sun kissed the blossom
it became a tree
with roots so deep
yet leaves so free

the sun joined the tree
went inside its strong trunk
and deep inside
two thoughts were thunk

one became a man
very tall like the tree
the other a woman
whose spirit was finally free

inside they danced
no shame, no hate
just the man and the woman
their love was great

so great that the tree
could not contain love
so it burst at the roots
and they were sent above

to dance in the stars
that made their eyes shine
where all dreams that were yours
were also mine

to think this all started
with one little light
that refused to be extinguished
and tried to be bright.